Down Again

I’m down again,

I cried tears,

Tears are running down my face,

I cried in my silent, little, dark room,

Where no one could hear and see me.

I cried,

But my inside screamed,

My body winced together,

Laying on the ground,

Hammering my hands on the floor,

Opening my mouth,

But just only tears rolled in.

Sounds of crying came out,

But I could keep them silent,

I swallowed my anger and pain.

I felt so senseless,

So small, so tired, so excluded, so destroyed,

so broken, so worn-out, so homeless, so hopeless,

so lonely

so dead

Oh, what are we living for?!!!

I cried of pain,

I laughed of myself and the world,

and I lived on,

On and on,

on and on.

And today such a day

Happened again,

I was down again.

2005 Naoa

~ von Naoa am September 19, 2007.